Hello there *waves* I've really been neglecting da, huh?
To be honest, last year was a really bad year for me. I was having a lot of problems in uni and in my personal life, and I just couldn't handle da as well. I don't really know why.

I can't promise that I'll be around much this year either (errr...seeing as it's already halfway through...) because everything is getting busier. But we'll see.

I wanted to pose a question (even though I know I'm unlikely to get many answers, if any. I just feel like asking.)
For people who work with self-portraiture: How do you feel about being the subject of your work? Of people seeing it?

I ask because I think that's one of the things I've found hard over the past 3 years I've been (admittedly infrequently) posting here. You see, I never decided I wanted to take photographs of myself. I do it mainly because I'm trying to learn more about photography, and don't have many people around to shoot. And I'm not really confident about my skills, which makes me...reluctant to ask people to come and model for me. So I wind up taking photos of myself. I certainly don't do it because I want to be told I'm pretty. I guess there's this guilty part of me that feels as though I'm fishing for compliments by posting self portraits, even though I'd never think that of anyone else who works with self-portraiture.

Right from the start, I've been really self conscious about having images of myself on the internet, for people to see. I think it comes from the privacy/safety/omgtheinternetisadangerousplace! part of me. So many times I've wanted to delete my whole gallery (well, anything with my image in it) simply because I don't want to deal with having pictures of myself out there for people to see. But it's part of my art.

I always mean to post more of my paintings, but...It's surprising just how hard it is to photograph them *right*. So many times I can't get the photograph to capture the essence of the painting itself, and just give up. (I shouldn't. But, you know. It happens.)

So yeah...I've just been caught between wanting feedback, wanting to submit more...and wanting to delete what's already on here. So my solution: Just ignore da and pretend it doesn't exist! Haha yeah that'll work.

Anyway, this is going nowhere fast, but I thought I'd share.

X Winter.